
If, by some chance, one of us tried to unburden himself or to say something about his feelings, the reply he got, whatever it might be, usually wounded him. And then it dawned on him that he and the man with him weren’t talking about the same thing. For while he himself spoke from the depths of long days of brooding upon his personal distress, and the image he had tried to impart had been slowly shaped and proved in the fires of passion and regret, this meant nothing to the man to whom he was speaking, who pictured a conventional emotion, a grief that is traded on the market-place, mass-produced. Whether friendly or hostile, the reply always missed fire, and the attempt to communicate had to be given up. This was true of those at least for whom silence was unbearable, and since the others could not find the truly expressive word, they resigned themselves to using the current coin of language, the commonplaces of plain narrative, of anecdote, and of their daily prayer. So in these cases, too, even the sincerest grief had to make do with the set phrases of ordinary conversation.
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My kingdom for the truly expressive word! Like Camus’s citizens of Oran I’m searching for a new word, a new language. Not to express my grief, as in this beautiful, passionate segment from his masterpiece, The Plague, but to express my intuitions in the book I’m writing. For anyone reading who’s new here, I’d tell you what the subject is, only I’d give you the wrong idea!
The current coin of language just will not cut it. I want to convey something magical, unguessed-at, stupendous and all I’ve got to work with is the “L” word. No wonder philosophers have to invent new vocabularies.
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While we’re on the topic of the current coin, I came across one of those infallibly delicious books of corporate speak, The Dictionary of Corporate Bullshit. Here are a few gems to take you into the weekend.
devil’s advocate: 1. one who adopts an opposing view in a nonpartisan way for the sake of testing an argument 2. common passive-aggressive tactic for saying “I completely disagree with you.”
dotted line 1. refers to an uncodified or informal reporting situation on an org chart 2. you supervise an employee but are not given the title, money, credit, respect, etc, for doing so; a cost-effective strategy.
Gen X/Gen Y interface 1. the workplace dynamic between employees who are members of Generation X with their younger colleagues, who are considered part of Generation Y 2. oil and water 3. Gen Xers, former latchkey kids infused with cynicism who entered the barren job market of the early 90s and took any position they could get, then scraped their way up to a passable living and a modicum of responsibility, were then charged with the duty of supervising a group whose every childhood whim was catered to, who got their first jobs in a flush economy that overcompensated new recruits, who are emboldened by an unearned sense of entitlement …
brain dump 1. to communicate a large amount of information, particularly when handing off a project to someone else 2. to have someone place a foot-high stack of files filled with their illegible notes on your desk, clog your inbox with a dozen or so messages and talk to you for twenty minutes about useless information regarding a project they’ve been working on for six months 3. an act that is followed by the statement, “So, is that clear?”
onetime expense 1. a cost that is incurred a single time 2. a way of justifying and writing off a costly, and huge, mistake.
it is what it is 1. something is what it is 2. empty statement; used when there is nothing to say about something, or when a situation is so screwed up it’s not worth making an effort to fix it.
living document 1. a document that is continually updated and revised according to new information relevant to its contents, with the goal of maintaining its accuracy 2. a document that is supposed to be continually updated and revised according to new information relevant to its contents, but isn’t – either updated, or accurate.
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