“Everything I had always thought about myself and about my world – all of my ideas, opinions, thoughts, attitudes, memories, hopes, worries, beliefs – all of it had suddenly revealed itself to be a hopeless tangle of chattering, machine-like voices. All that stuff which had made up ‘me’, suddenly wasn’t me. My view of myself had shifted dramatically. ‘I’ was somehow now the space, or context, or awareness, or Self, within which that old ‘me’ occurred.
This was perhaps the most important teaching from the est training [now, the Landmark Forum] that has stayed with me 30 years later: the incessant voice that lives inside my head, calling itself ‘I’ and ‘me’ and constantly narrating the story of my life, is not who I really am. Rather, that constant mental chattering I normally think of as ‘my mind’ was revealed in the training to be nothing more than an automatic and mechanistic thinking machine. It sometimes has great ideas, but more often than not it simply perpetuates a problem-riddled, grim interpretation of life, and is ill-equipped to be in charge of me and my decisions.”
~ Eliezer Sobel, The 99th Monkey, 2008